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BBWLuvr3000: Hi, Amy! I stumbled across (well really tripped on ,lol) your blog from the Big Beautiful Wonder Woman Blog and wanted to say hi and that it's awesome that you love being fat and hold your head up high. More women should feel that same way that you do! Keep it up!
Boink: This blog has officially been BOINKED!
Laurie: Hi, Amy! I absolutely love your blog. I check it everyday. I think you are an awesome chick and I really admire the strength and perseverance that it has taken for you to become the BBW that you are today. I am an FFA and am married to a gaining BHM. I recently started my own blog about our experiences. If you ever get a chance, please let me know what you think of it. I would love to hear from you.
Natalia: Hello,
Fafnir: oh cool, where abouts in canada you from anyway? :)
bravezila: ..Tag
feedee_stuffer: One would wonder if people with the urge to go to other people's journal's just so they can post unsolicited criticisms have a chemical imbalance in their brain. I understand that you want to do this but there are health risks that you shouldnt overlook. Honestly Amy could crush you like a twig if you keep judging her! Which would be kinda hot.
Lisa: One would wonder if people with the urge to gain weight on purpose have a chemical imbalance in thier brain. I understand that you want to do this but there are health risks that you shouldn't overlook. Honestly you're shortening your life span by 10 years ++ and what if you have children in the furture or something? It's just kind of sad.
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Aja: How do you get so many visitors at your weblog? :D
Storm: Good to be back checking on my friends. Glad to hear life is good for you! I sttarted posting my own work again ... let me know what ya think. By the way, I put a link to my ebook (free) at the bottom of today's blog ... love ya ...
Teri: I am a big girl too. You are an amazing person. You sound completely comfortable with yourself. I hope to be that way too. It's hard but most days I can actually say I like myself. Who cares about the xtra pounds...Heehee! Just wanted to say hi and I'll be back...if you don't mind.
Margaret: Yummm...Cheesecake. I haven't seen Brokeback mountain either, or as my aunt called it the homo-cowboy-movie.
Jenn: Just out visiting and thought I would stop by and say "Hi!". Hope you are having a wonderful new year so far!
Storm: Come read the praise report! Thanks for joining with us.
2fat4u: hi girlfriend . . .just bounced onto ur blog . . . keeping growing
Kriss_mass: I LOVE the Holidays, I get to eat, and eat, Until i cant move.
Wendy: Who cares about a few holiday pounds? Riot not diet!
Storm: Hi, hadn't been by in a little while, hope you're having a great holiday season
gabriela: have a great weekend
Storm: Out blog hopping and found your site ... having been a heavy weight of (250) and lost it to a "slim" 180 and on the way down, I can appreciate your feelings. But i do get concerned with those of us with too much weight--Love God, Love yourself--everything else falls into place. (will make a longer comment)
Nathalie: Hellew, wishing you an AWESOME weekend! Please stop by and sign my "Bravenet Bloggers" map. There's a link to it in on my blog. Thanks Muchly
dale: i love your journal and belive from what i've read gaining does make you happy. i know that feeling and love it as well. wishing you all the best.
Ann: Unlike anyone else here, I for one think that slowly you are killing yourself to make "him happy" and I don't know how that can even start to make you happy. Why is it that weight gaining as been so important more so for his happiness rather then yours? I see that all it is doing to you is slowly killing you! Yes you are right, how could I possibly understand?Well what I do understand is that later on you will not be as happy because your discomfort will worsen and you will be unable to do anyth
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Nathalie: Just dropped in to wish you a Happy Gobble Gobble :)
Blackjack Jeeves: I feel like I'm intruding... but I was browsing, came across your site... wanted to wish you well on your journey towards whatever you seek. Hugs n loves!
Leah: just stopping by Light and Love to you Blessed be and Merry meet
eric: hello
venom75: Just stopping by to say hi.
eric: just popin to say hi.
Wendy: It's like I always say, it's better to riot against society's twisted norms about women instead of going on a diet.
RAINBOW: Stop by and play "SURVIVOR"!
Melissa: Love ur journal!
WISHLAMP: I haven't seen the new Star Wars yet. But I do want to. I'm excited to go see it.
Thomas: Loved your blog Amy. Keep up the good work.
Nick: Amy love your blog, thre must be no feeling like eating and eating until you are totally stuffed unable to move
eumeb: hi, greetings from germany.
Naheeda: Love your blog! and I'm enjoying to read your blog.
JeanC: Out surfing and stopped to say hi again
Linzel: Very nice journal, I love the rainbow background.
Dark Willow: Just being nosey:) Keep enjoying life and live for the day:)
Barry K.: Love your site! I hope you had a great Easter filled with friends and yummy chocolate bunnies!
like em big: Ejoy your blog very much. I too have been following your journal for a while and miss it when you are too busy to write.
Storyteller: Just wanted to say hi & I enjoy a lot of the same movies you mentioned
simark: Hi Amy!! I've been following your journal for months now - you're amazing. I've never mentioned my feelings about fat on my journal... that is, until New Year came and all the diets drove me over the edge! I've decided to change the world's view of fat (because everyone reads my blog LOL). I'd love for you to come and comment some time - if only to say "shut up you idiot"... Seeya!SIMARK
Amy: Hi....Enjoy reading your journal!
mike: that is so funny! The wife and I are watching the same thing and she wants to be so full that she needs help getting to the couch b4 we start. luv ya amy, I am glad it sounds like you are doing better.

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Tuesday, February 9th 2010

10:59 AM

The Fat Lives On

  • Mood: Super Excited
  • Weight:
  • BMI: 87.0
  • Craving: A little of this, a little of that... maybe some of the other thing... and then another of those...
It’s been almost a year since my last post.

It’s been perhaps the happiest year of my life, and I’m thankful to finally share it.

Happiness #1:  Thomas and I finally got hitched!  It was a small little ceremony with our friends and family.  Neither of us really thought we NEEDED it, we mostly did it for our families.  However, having done it, turns out we did NEED it.  It changes perspectives on life to make something official.  It was also one hell of a party!

Happiness #2:  I finished the job I was working on.  It was a short term job, mostly helping some computer geeks learn how to get along in the  world of business.  They’re really smart guys, but some things you just have to know.  They hated me at first, but now they make a living doing what they want.  That’s all the thanks I need.

So I’ve started a new job, I’m doing consulting from home.  That’s right, my very own home based business!  We adjusted a room in the basement to be my office.  It’s really nicely laid out, it’s comfortable, it’s got what I need to do my job, and most importantly, it’s got room to grow…. Which leads me to…

Happiness #3:  I’ve had some health concerns in the past.  At a recent check up they ran some new tests that weren’t available before, and either I’ve made some astonishing progress, or maybe they were just wrong.  I now have a clean bill of health.

You know what that means, don’t you?

This fat ass is finally going to get fatter…

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Tuesday, April 7th 2009

4:12 PM

Parting Ways,... Once Again

  • Mood: Excited
  • Weight: Haven't weighed in lately...
  • BMI: See above
I've taken a new job.

It's an executive position, the company needs some help, and I think they've got a good future, but they need help getting there!

Once again, I'm required to submit anything I publish to the board, so I'll be signing off for probably another year.

I never did get back into the habit of blogging again, and I wish I had!  I used to love it.  I still do, but just never quite got into a groove.

I'm excited about the job though.  I'm a little sad to give up my auditing position, it gave me more freedom, but I suspect I'll be back at it once I get this company turned around.

Until then, good luck everyone!

Amy

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Thursday, March 5th 2009

7:12 PM

The Big Swim

  • Mood: Worn out

I did my aquafit last night, first time this year!  It really wore me out, but I'm glad I did it.

The class was fun, it wasn't just old ladies and me this time, there were some younger women who were big.  No one in my weight class, but big enough I didn't feel alone!

What's more, the lifeguard running the class wasn't super tiny!  It would be a stretch to call her fat, but when I was her size, I considered myself to be fat.  She might be 140 pounds or so.  I didn't ask.

It was nice, there weren't any guys around.  I don't like it when they're watching me getting in/out of the pool.  Just a thing I guess that I hated last time.

For now I'll be doing it every other day, I could really feel it today!  It's something I need to get in the habit of, but can't over do it either!

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Saturday, February 28th 2009

8:50 AM

Once again into the breach

  • Mood: Determined
  • Weight:
  • BMI: 88.8
  • Craving: Would you believe salad?

The time has come once again to get serious about losing weight.  I know the main indicator of success is motivation, and I'm not sure I'll ever be completely motivated, but lately I've been thinking about it again.  I'll get back in the pool, I'll curtail my snacking, and I'll lose some weight.

With the RSP deadline upon us, I've been busy, and a little stressed.  While the stress makes me hungrier, it also kills my appetite for snacking.  It's weird, I know, but meals are bigger, but snacks are smaller, so I've been eating less.  I should be able to ride that wave of stress out for the summer.

Then we'll see where I'm at.

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Sunday, February 15th 2009

11:08 AM

Happy Valentine's Day

  • Mood: Absolutely Fantastic!

Or Valentine's + 1 I suppose.

We had a great day.  Thomas took me to a restaurant he consulted with the design on.  The food and service was great, and of course the atmosphere was perfect!

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Monday, February 9th 2009

3:28 PM

No Surprises

  • Mood: Busy
  • Weight: 551
I'm sorry I haven't posted earlier.  I guess I was trying to make sure that my 'next' post was a 'good' post.  It means taking the time to sit and write it, and it's tough to take my spare time these days and write something that I think should be written.

So I give up, you'll have to settle for whatever I spout out!

Hopefully I can get something better posted, but... I guess I need to avoid heading down that road.

My job has become ridiculously stressful.  I'm working as an auditor:  basically it's my job to point out where a company is having trouble.  Problem is, EVERY company is having trouble these days, and for some, it's not really their fault, and there's little I can do to help them.  Others, I can help, but they refuse to accept my advice.  That's fine, free world, they're the people running it, they can do as they choose. 

It's just tough sometimes.

On the plus side, when I'm stressed, I'm eating these days!  I'm still watching what I eat, so I'm eating lots of salads now, and I snack on nuts and fruit for the most part.  Just making sure I have plenty.

My weight is actually up to 551 pounds now.  I was a little surprised to see that... but not all that surprised, and definitely not disappointed at all.

I don't really have a goal right now, but let's just say that if I ever reach 600 pounds, I won't be the slightest bit disappointed.

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Saturday, January 3rd 2009

6:53 PM

Back in Calgary

  • Mood: Exhausted
Home safe and sound. More later.
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Sunday, December 28th 2008

9:35 AM

Happy Holidays!

  • Mood: Cheery!
  • Weight: Who knows?
  • BMI: Who cares?
  • Craving: FOOD!
Wish I'd gotten a chance to post earlier, but this will have to do.

I'm back in Ontario now, middle of two weeks seeing family and friends.

We flew back last Saturday, and while the experience wasn't pleasant, our plane was on time, so my complaints about standing and waiting are pretty minimal compared to millions who's travel plans were ruined.

We spent a week at my parents' place, getting to see family and friends from the GTA.  Dinner with my mom wasn't as bad as I'd feared, so yay   I certainly was more restrained than in years past, so yay me.

We got to go out and see some movies.  Been a year since I was at a theatre!  We saw Benjamin Button and Quantum of Solace.

Now we're visiting with Thomas's uncle and his family.  They're still all monday morning FAs, asking me all kinds of everything.  They still love it, and I still love it.  I talk fat online, but it's been a year since I talked fat in person!  There's something different about it that way, I've loved it all week!

Tomorrow we're off to London, and we'll be staying with Char and Ian.  She's already promised to pull out the stops and cook the biggest healthiest dinners she's ever made!

Can't wait!
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Thursday, December 11th 2008

7:54 PM

Tis the season.

  • Mood: Tuckered Out
  • Weight: 546
  • BMI: 88.1
  • Craving: Just some time to sit and snack
As with anything in life, there are good things and bad things about any given situation. I like my job, a lot. At least, I like the MAIN part of my job.

The trouble is, I work for an expanded business, and business is mostly about developing relationships. For the most part, my job is to ensure the relationships are honest and fruitful. I like that part of the job. What I also have to do is meet people, get to know people, and connect with people. Now, there's nothing wrong with that. I like meeting people, getting to know people and connecting with people.

The problem, sometimes I'm forced to meet, get to know and connect with people that I don't really like. For the most part it's not really a problem. And for the most part, even when I'm not happy meeting someone, it's as much to do with that I'd rather be doing something else, and nothing to do with the people themselves. Between my work and Thomas's work I've been to SEVEN Christmas parties.

Seven Christmas parties might sound great: open bars, big dinners (not as much as in previous years, even in Calgary) and lots going on. And that is great. But it's a lot more time on my feet than I'd like. Less time watching hockey, or just at home with my feet up and the TV on.

It's part of the job, and I'm not expecting sympathy that I HAD to go to seven nice parties.

Just needed to vent a little bit: 546 pounds isn't built for the party life!

PS, that's right, had a doctor's appointment and couldn't avoid the scale any more. 546 pounds.

Sorry mom...
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Thursday, November 27th 2008

5:34 PM

Better this than nothing!

  • Mood: Hungry!
  • Craving: Pizza, wings, nachos, cheese fries...
It's not much of a blog if I don't actually post anything.  It just seems to stay at the bottom of my todo list.

It's been a busy month, of course.  The weather turns dower.  The night comes quicker.  There's a lot of hockey on TV though!  Good excuse to have some wings, and pizza and nachos.  And garlic bread.  And cheese fries.  I could go on, and I'm sure I will later tonight.

Despite my best intentions, my appetite has grown on me.  Okay, maybe not my BEST intentions, but even when I do something half assed, that's a pretty big ass...  I'm still not the eating machine I once was, I don't have the time or support for that, but I am doing quite well with what I've got.

I'm eating better still.  I always get in my greens, and I have basically given up sweets.

We've also purchased our purchased our plane tickets for back home.  Haven't seen my friends and family in far too long.  Hope they're worth squeezing into a plane for!

So that's the quick version.

I know I still owe a better post about being 550 pounds.  I just need to do it RIGHT

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